![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
savvyliterateI know I have been blessed with some unusual talents. I know I can't use them very well. But, how am I going to get any better if I can't at least watch others use theirs??
Then again, I think the thing that gets me the most is when I'm told that I can't do something because I'm lacking - a certain skill, a certain control, etc. At least give me the chance to learn or explore it on my own.
Then again, the heart of the matter is that I really really hate being told I can't do something period. It's the youngest child in me, I know it. Being the youngest of three and the only girl to boot meant that I got my way - a lot. And it really rankles me when someone tells me "No, you can't do something." I just wish more people, when saying no, would explain why they were saying no. It would make things easier, IMHO.
So, with that part of my soul admitted, I'm sorry I yelled at Mack when we were online a few minutes ago. Call it my kitten claw defense.
What I'm afraid of is that every time I do protest like that, I'll be thought of as being immature. I've done a lot of growing up in the past six and a half months. Being out of school and away from your friends will do that to you. Just when I think I'm getting things right, my kitten claws strike again. ::sigh::
Maybe I'll get it right one day.
Then again, I think the thing that gets me the most is when I'm told that I can't do something because I'm lacking - a certain skill, a certain control, etc. At least give me the chance to learn or explore it on my own.
Then again, the heart of the matter is that I really really hate being told I can't do something period. It's the youngest child in me, I know it. Being the youngest of three and the only girl to boot meant that I got my way - a lot. And it really rankles me when someone tells me "No, you can't do something." I just wish more people, when saying no, would explain why they were saying no. It would make things easier, IMHO.
So, with that part of my soul admitted, I'm sorry I yelled at Mack when we were online a few minutes ago. Call it my kitten claw defense.
What I'm afraid of is that every time I do protest like that, I'll be thought of as being immature. I've done a lot of growing up in the past six and a half months. Being out of school and away from your friends will do that to you. Just when I think I'm getting things right, my kitten claws strike again. ::sigh::
Maybe I'll get it right one day.
Tags: