Nostaglia

I woke up a few minutes ago and suddenly flashed back to my college years. I remember waking up on beautiful weekend mornings like this in the fall - my feet hiting the cold tile of the dorm room floor as I got out of bed so I could go squint at my alarm clock and turn it off. Depending on the day, I would either throw on clothes to get ready for band rehearsal and a football game or I could relax for the day - or until I had to go to the CW.

Eventually, I would emerge from the dorms and find out that the weather is not so hot and what trees that did lose their leaves were starting to lose their color. I absolutely loved going to the University of Alabama - it is still the most beautiful college campus I've ever seen. I'd find my way to the mall or to one of the libraries or hang out with caligogreywings, derichi, Celeste or other people. Nights that I didn't work at the CW were dedicated to writing fanfic or playing "Dragonrealms."

I truly miss college. With the exception of Jorie Sutton during my sophomore year, it was truly one of the best times in my life so far. It's still strange, looking around this apartment and knowing that this is my own home. I've grown from half a dorm room to a huge apartment! I wonder if I treasured those years enough. And sometimes I wish I could go back and do it all over again. Would I change a thing? No - except I would had studied more and I would had never gotten a credit card.

I guess I'm feeling nostalgic because a girl I considered my rival in junior high and high school got married two weeks ago. She was always the perfect thin, blonde cheerleader - the dedicated churchgoer. She'd put on this public face towards people and cut them down in private, which is why I didn't care for her. She went through college, did the sorority girl thing and got the perfect fraternity husband.

I wonder at times what's going to happen to me. Sure, I've got a fantastic career that's on the move, but I still wake up in the mornings at times and wonder what I'm meant to do. What's my next goal in life? Sometimes, I just feel like I'm drifting...

Bleh

So, I scouted out Johnson City and picked up supplies from a little cross stitching store there. I also called James and met him for lunch while he did his laundry. I told him that he could come use my washer and dryer since they're free. Celeste has a philosophy that if someone's college and you're not, you help them out as much as you can. Well, I think I've adopted the same philosophy.

Came back to Bristol, talking to Celeste on the cell phone the entire way. I kept thinking there's a Michaels at exit 7, but there's not. So, either I'm going to head back to Johnson City tonight or in the morning or just stop at Michaels when I go to Jonesbourgh on Tuesday.

I went to Mountain Empire to see what the anime club was like. They were watching "Grave of the Fireflies," which proceeds to turn me into a weeping, depressed mass of human being every time I see it. So, I didn't go in the room. They kept staring at me through the window as if I was some type of freak. That didn't make me feel comfortable either. So, I walked downtown Bristol instead and stared at the antique shops. I keep missing the bagel shop when it's open. I want to see if they have Everything Bagels.

For some reason, I got really light-headed, so I came home and took a nap. I don't know why - I got plenty of sleep, I had a good lunch and I'm relatively stress-free. It's weird. I still feel a little strange.