Ramblings

I've been doing a lot of serious thinking over the past day about a few issues. But, I think that right now, the state of Meg happens to be pretty good.

I've noticed that I'm not lonely anymore. I still don't have any real friends outside of work other than tiegirl. But, I seriously couldn't ask for better co-workers. Even the supremely negative one has come around a bit. One of the new fellows actually shares some of my interests, and we're going to have a Doctor Who watching party when I get back from Toronto since I have BBC America. She's beyond excited about it.

I wound up talking with secondlina about it yesterday over video chat, and she agreed that finding local friends does take a good bit of work. But, I think I'm finding that what I want out of a friendship has changed the more I've gotten older. For the first time in my life, I'm fully embraced being me: A journalist, as a tech blogger, as a comics writer, as a geek, as a bibliophile, fanfic writer, etc.

It's funny, because one of the things I was so scared about when I got married was losing myself. I am not, nor will never be, a model housewife. Thank goodness. I think I've been trying so hard to live up to what I perceive other people's ideal of me should be that I forget that I'm worth knowing, even though I'm not a perfect person. In the past year and a half, thanks to marriage, finding a good job and Namesake, I've finished finding myself instead of losing it. I'm pretty happy who the person I am. I'm more self-confident, so that results in feeling less lonely.

OK, being insanely busy most of the time helps. ^_~

Life isn't perfect. I'm excited and terrified about Mike moving over here. I hope we'll be able to live together without killing each other, and I want him to be happy. I know he'll be homesick, and I just hope I'll be enough for him. We've been talking about having a baby in the next few years, and that has me both excited and petrified. I'm worried about the economy and who'll be our president as I don't see any candidate, Democrat or Republican, I want in the White House right now. But, I think in the end, everything will be OK.

Sometimes I feel like a meme

Ganked from earthstar_moon and brendala

A) My OTP
B) The runner up
C) The anti-ship
D) My unpopular fannish opinion on said character
E) One person he/she never fell in love with, and why